This is me

Words about Johanna

KaReN** says:
tu eres la niña mas valiente que yo conozco
** KaReN** says:
y si dices quiero
** KaReN** says:
quieres
** KaReN** says:
y si dices lo hago
** KaReN** says:
lo haces
** KaReN** says:
entonces
** KaReN** says:
solo es de que quieras hacerlos

In English; You are the bravest girl I know, and if you say "I want" you want, and if you say "I will" you will, so, it´s just that you have to want it.

What decide you taste?

I had for a few semester a secret love in my town, we just met at clubs and were inpossible to seperate for a few hours before he went to his place and me to my place, there was never a chat about going home together. We could stay outside for hours just kissing after the closing but never ever we went home...2 semesters, 1 year, every wednesday for 40 weeks...and I was so in love with this guy. When Im telling my friends about him they imagine a tall, handsome prince with dark eyes, marked jaws and a sexy smile...then when they see him...well, the mayority had said, "but Johanna he is so NOT-YOU"...
So, what decides you taste? Who can say he is so not-me? What´s me then?

The picture is me and my secret love this Friday when we met again after more than a year apart....you can tell the way I feel for him by just looking at my eyes

Everyday something has to end...

I feel like Bridget Jones at work...

...I actually do. Except that Im wearing jeans, not a mini-shirt, except that my boss is NOT Hugh Grant, except that I dont wear a see through top....well, except those things, I feel like Bridget Jones at work.
· I checked my e-mail 2957459 times in 1,5 hour
· I wrote in my online diary (the travel book)
· I went peeing 4 times
· Ive been thinking about going home 5 times
· I planned my party nite
· I tried to plan my weekend
· Ive reading about courses to take the next semester (OBS; starts in September!!!)
· Ive been reading the news...well, the news about famous people, whom is dating whom....what to wear etc.
· I have even sent an e-mail to myself, just to check that my mail is working!

(Wait have to check my e-mail.....no, nothing)

Barcelona is such a small town...my first thought was that it´s a huuuuuuge international city and that you can always go unseen at the streets...but no; its not true.
I used to study in Lund (south of Sweden) and there I got to know all the Spanish guys (not the girls....they got something against me) well, anyway, all the guys except one! I saw him all over the town, we said hi but never talked more, suddenly one day he was gone and I didnt even know his name...I tried to find out but noone knew who I was talking about...

(wait...e-mail check...)

1,5 year after this happening I moved here, to Barcelona, and the 2nd day in our new apartment me and my friend throwed a housewarming party...I was sitting in the sofa, stoned, drunk and way too tired and suddenly this guy (!) was standing in the door to my livingroom. I couldnt believe it! And after the party nothing...no seen, no calling, nada, zero, noll...

(Mobile check...maybe someone texted me...noooo, of course not)

Last week I went running to the beach (yes I acctually go running once in a while) and when I reached the empty beach (was at nite) put my foot in the sand this guy is passing me dressed in just a towel...sadly I was so chocked so I just continuted running...

Just one of the small happenings in my everyday life in B-town.

Back to sending e-mails to myself....

Stay Coolisch babies

How to tell a girl what to do?

My friend needed my advice; sure, I love to help my friends...but if it´s a advice that it´s very personal? I mean, if it´s about a thingy that I really can´t advice....cos my own opinion and cos of difference in culture? What to do then? I don´t want her to get hurt cos of my advise :(.....
Gone for partying...beijos